MERRY Xmas!

MERRY XMAS!!
AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME :)
yup..it's my birthday!! :))

:)

Don't Quit
When things go wrong
as they will sometimes will,
When the road you're
trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low
and the debts are high,
And you want to smile
but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing,
you down a bit,
Rest if u must
But don't you quit.

the princess.........

I have never considered myself an attractive girl, I am no head-turner….but yes, things changed when I met him.It was no love at first sight , in fact, it wasn't even love! He was not drop-dead gorgeous or anything, but everything about him makes me wonder how God actually made for me the perfect person,and snatched him right away.

I had met him at my School culture ,he was one of the two in the quiz show, the show whose committee I was heading. I am a great quizzer, but this guy just stunned me , not only for his brilliance but his subtlety, humility and oh, that slight smile that sends shivers down my spine even now, as I think of it.

I watched spellbound for the entire one hour of the quiz show, as he silently discussed every question with his friend, who was obviously not as smart. I watched as he let his friend answer, and gently smiled and noted down the points their team had scored for every correct answer, so different from his friend who made a 'Whooo!' for every correct answer. I was full of admiration for him.

It turned into the pleasantest thing in the world when he looked up and looked me in the eye, the beginnings of a smile evident on his lips. One look, and he made me feel like a princess. I was a princess. His princess. We both knew it. Though it's more than a year since I met him, I am his princess. I will be, even if I never meet him again.

When you are down.....

There may be days when you get up in the morning and things aren't the way you had hoped they would be. That's when you have to reassure yourself that things will get better soon.There will be times when people will disappoint you and let you down. But those are the times when you must learn to trust your own judgements and opinions.There will be challenges to face and several changes to adapt to, and it is upto you to accept them.Constantly keep yourself headed in the right direction, for it may not be easy at times, but in those tough times of struggle, you'll find a stronger sense of who you are.So, when the days come that are filled with frustration & unexpected responsibilities, remember to believe in yourself and all that you want your life to be.Because challenges & changes will only help you find your goals that you know are meant to come true for you.

The higher the goal,
The harder the climb.
But taken each day one step at a time;
The goal is accomplished.
The dream is attained.
And the prizes??
The Wisdom and Strength that are gained.

I'll survive!
I haven't even been looking at what has been happening in my blog for a while... it seemed to be asleep, devoid of much activity, and I felt so bad for it, my poor lil' blog!!It's been a helluva busy weekend and an even worse Monday of a new week. I'm just hoping I survive this week too, just like I survived today.

STUCK...

It's been a while since I blogged.sorry..my streamyx connection was down.Life's been ok. I've been thinking a lot. About everything. About my friends, family,relatives,school...about my future...about music, academics....about myself. Thanks to my mum, I'm thinking about poor people in Africa. Basically I'm in a highly confused state. I was probably less confused before I got into this thinking spree (couldn't think of another word). Everyone is always thinking. Its a fact. Sometimes, you think harder than others. The topics I have mentioned are extremely suitable for hard thinking. Once you start thinking about any of the above mentioned things, you can't stop. The harder you try to think about something as inane and nonsensical as the things you're usually thinking about, the harder it becomes to stop thinking about the sensible and frankly, quite scary things that you usually don't think about. I don't know why I want to stop thinking about these things. Probably, some time in the future when I am thinking about nonsensical things, I will think to myself - "Instead of thinking about this nonsense, why don't I think about something sensible?" But quite obviously, sense does not come to me on demand, and when it does come, it scares the shit out of me as it is doing now, and leaves me resolving to study harder, practice harder, try to improve myself as a person. I will study for at least 2 hours in a day, I tell myself. I need to do well, its STPM, my life depends on the results of this exam. I tell myself I will wake up by 5:30 or 6 every morning and practice. These resolutions usually last for about a day. Then, somehow, they manage to worm their way out of my life, leaving me as useless as I was before. So now, I think to myself, why resolve? You promise yourself you will do all these things, but you never do. Where does that leave me? Resolving to keep my resolutions. Ha...quite a vicious cycle, isn't it?I'm confused. Confused about everything. Confused about my family, my friends, my future. Myself. 'What will you do after my STPM?' everyone asks me. 'What will I do after my STPM?' I ask myself. God alone knows, and I have a suspicion that even he (she?) isn't too sure right now. Medicine? No chance(am a art's student). Bussines(nah..)….law( maybe). So that leaves me with....well...nothing. Nothing concrete at any rate. '. Not too encouraging I must say.